Friday, April 10, 2009

Huge thanks to so many people

Thank you for your thoughts and your prayers. So much happened so quick and so much changed so quickly that I haven't really had time to digest it or realize exactly what happened.

The entire situation has only taken 9 weeks so far. In that time I've gone from nothing to a diagnosis of Stage 4 cancer to an all clear diagnosis. That's a lot of changes in a short period of time.

At one point I had to consider myself gone from this world as soon as my body figured out it couldn't survive what it was facing. I pretty much accepted that fate, but I was confident I would find a way to survive anything thrown at me. I never had enough time to contemplate not achieving that goal. Waking up in the middle of the night was bad. Waking up was the nightmare. Waking up always reminded me that real life was worse than any nightmare I could ever experience.

When the results of the surgeries were evaluated, the original diagnosis of Stage 4 was proven wrong. The life-threatening risk factors were proven wrong. All evidence at this point in time points toward a 100% recovery with not a single long-term effect or recurrence of this cancer.

I certainly haven't had the time to realize how lucky, fortunate, blessed, or prayed-for that I have been. I always thought I was going to beat it, regardless of how much things were stacked against me.

Getting a pretty much clean bill of health out of it is what I was expecting. It hasn't sunk in yet that I'm one of very few people who gets this kind of a change in their outlook.

I don't want to experience any epiphanies or go on any great crusade now that I have a second chance at living. I just want to enjoy each day and have a greater appreciation and understanding of those who are sharing a day of life with me.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Just speechless here. So glad for the positive prognosis. I'm looking forward to many non contentious differences of opionons. (dang....We're starting to agree most of the time) ;)

Take care for you and Robbie